Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Safe sex a lost art?

Two stories i came across that might interest my peers





http://vibe.com/posts/condom-sales-declining-rawdogging-rise

Even in the age of HIV/AIDS, studies show that several people still aren’t using protection. According to research by Ian Daly, a Details magazine writer who penned "The Death of Safe Sex", condom sales in the United States are getting lower, syphilis is making a comeback, shooting up by 43% between 1994 and 2004, chlamydia cases have doubled in that same time span and since 2001 new cases of HIV have been spiking.

Daly interviewed several professional men (mainly physicians and lawyers), some of whom were married, for the article and his findings were astonishing:

“The only disease I ever got was crabs,” says Mike, 35, scanning the banquettes of women in too-short-for-Casual-Friday dresses, “and that was worth it!” This delights his friends, Evan, 37, and Alan, 43. Handily one-upping his pal, Alan recalls a wild night in a Miami swimming pool. “She ended up giving me Chlamydia,” he says. “And the sick thing is, two or three weeks later I saw her at a party and told her what happened—but she looked even better! So, dude, I took her home, and I got it again!” They all burst out laughing.

These men are a microcosm of what seems to be changing attitudes toward safe sex among the masses. According to doctors interviewed for the article, more people are starting to view STD’s as nuisances that can mostly be cured and in the cases of HIV, herpes and HPV, they’re seen more as chronic conditions like diabetes, which can be managed. People are also still believing that STDs, especially HIV are more of a homosexual male problem and that because they don’t know anyone infected with the more serious diseases, that they will be fine.

“It keeps us in business. It’s across the board, heterosexual and homosexual. I’m talking about a tremendous rise in Human Papilloma Virus [the cause of genital warts] and Chlamydia in the heterosexual population,” says Dr. Steven Berman, a Manhattan urologist who’s been in practice for 20 years. “People don’t want to be bothered. There’s a tremendous number of people with multiple partners now who might use a condom on the first contact but then frequently drop using condoms quickly afterwards. Even populations who are at risk—patients I’ve treated before for STDs—some men are resistant to using condoms. It’s not sinking in—the message is just not clear.”

Another contributing factor for people’s ignorance discussed in the Details article is that abstinence education has way a substantial amount of resources from sexual education programs that have been proven to work better. The federal government spends twice as much on abstinence programs as it does on the Division of STD Prevention at the CDC—the department that managed to quell outbreaks of gonorrhea and syphilis among soldiers after the Second World War. According to doctors, by displacing those funds you put people more at risk.

The bottom line is, fellas: It’s not just women like Kat Stacks you need to look out. Ladies: Although the Details piece focuses on men, it’s also a woman’s responsibility to make sure her partner wraps it up because unplanned pregnancy isn’t cute either.

Do you agree that people are taking STD’s less seriously these days? Why aren’t people wrapping it up? —Starrene Rhett (@GangStarrGirl)

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Monday, December 6, 2010

quote of the week

"a college degree and a dollar will get your four quarters."

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Graduation?

Its looking more and more like may 2012.

Closer to my dreams

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

The Realization

So i came to a Realization as i'm standing hear listening to the freshman's talents and artistic expressions


"I came. I saw. I conquered.
Nah.. i didnt get what i wanted
i got something more useful
i liked her ofcourse
she fell for me naturally
Wined and dined
sexed and texted
..her mind
instantly she made
herself feel at home
feel for me
but there was sumthin missin
her undivided attention
and even i got caught up
In my feelins...
I kept my composure...
Oh you cheated on your boyfriend
For me
.. teary eyed i said "thats nice"
Late night textin him in my bed
"thats nice"
i didnt mind
Poison in your saliva
Your kisses made me sick
as bad as you prolly wanted it
i never thought about givin you
.... the dick
so after i came to the realization
You are no longer my main concern
my main focus
my undivided attention
So now that you no longer
Answer my texts
i wont wasting my time calling you
So until you get up
or another dude helps you up
from your fall for me
I will fight myself from
...falling for your type
The Realization
end quote"

Monday, August 16, 2010

The Tease

--I kinda liked the set up in my head so ima step outside the box and create imagery

She lies there
I walk into the 
sex room 
as that is what
the play-list is called
She lies there
sweat pants
hair tied
chillin wit no
make up on
She lies there
hair full
complexion caramel
eyes closed
as
I run my hands through
her hair as
She lies there
Vulnerable
to a bite...
weak to my teeth
against your skin
the way 
you jumped 
when i did that
the way 
u closed your eyes
when i did that
the way
you told me not to
when i did that
the way 
i kept it goin 
the way
i grabbed your hair
and slowly
...slowly
made my way up
to your neck
tracing that 
artery of pleasure
facing that
you just might like this
So vulnerable
I suppose you can
call me a bully
because at this point
I'm picking on you
as I write my name 
In spit
Licking you
As I write more words
In spit
Then i suck it up cuz 
Your wet
with spit 
among other things..
So I move higher
kissing the cheek
but moving higher
As I bite the ear
you roll over
symbolizing a 
getaway
but I refuse to 
let you escape
you are mine
so I follow
but this time
behind you
and i start
at the base of 
your spine 
lifting your shirt
and lick up
as you arch 
your back
its something about
Teasing You
and when i get to your
bra strap
I contemplate
Pleasing You
but instead I
lick up
and get to the 
back of your neck
as i grab a 
fistful of hair
i make love to the
back of your neck
Teasing you
I come back to the 
bra strap 
and unhook it
jus to move it out 
the way
playing with your nipples
sucking the areolas
As you stop me..
I ask, are you breathing?
You sigh...
I move back to where
I started and
continue to be
A bully
as I climb 
on top of you
and grind..
and grind..
as i know it 
drives you crazy
i suppose i should 
stop being such
a tease
but i can't help it
as you try to get away
i refuse to let you away
and we toss and turn
until we reach the
doggy style position
as the imprint of my dick
through my shorts
lays in the middle of your ass
through your sweats
with neo soul 
flooding the background
i grind..
and grind.. 
until you can't take nomore
YOUR TURN
as you get on top of me
and attempt to take control 
and grind on me
you molest my neck
at carefully placed angles
leaving nothing to be desired
sending my mind into a
temporary abyss
as the sun rises
so does my penis..
I feel like she has
control
and i love it
but i can't let 
her have it forever
as i regain my composure 
she grabs my thumb 
and slowly puts it in her mouth
turning up me to max
as she sucks and licks
and sucks
and licks
and it was something
about her focus and drive
that made me tell her to stop
and ofcourse
she didn't
such the tease
as she got me back
with ease
and needless to say
no clothes came off
but i was satisfied with
The TEASE



Monday, August 9, 2010

2nd quote of the week

"Fight for your opinions, but do not believe that they contain the whole truth or the only truth."

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Another Feature... She blogs check her out

Check her out .. she blogs bout music and everything cool on tumblr... 
 
 
i even got a mention  
 
MICKEI!!



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quote of the week

"I would rather trust a woman's instinct than a man's
reason."

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Saturday, July 24, 2010

INCEPTION

A dream unconsciously spoken
Escapes reality...
In that instant... I need to know..
Where am I?
As I walk across the clouds, I feel myself rising
waiting for the future by letting go of my past
I thought I was ready but as a delegate once explained to me
You're never really know until you're actually doing it..
Of course I'll never understand but I'll never forget
wise words from a decent man..
Trust issues because I hate to hold Denise's hand
Momma raised me... Momma dropped me...
good thing I learned how to dust my self off
A dream of the perfect portrait unfortunately
i forgot what I was drawing... and then
...i forgot what I was writing
Wait...There she is
Deception, in her purest form.. leading me off cloud 9
Free falling... I don't have 9 lives
From ten different directions, telling me 9 lies.
Why am i forced to have this feeling of hate?
Falling upside-down, i can't see straight.
What does my future await?
Will my past and future conjugate..
with right now?
A dream of inception that i can not wake up from
I conversed myself asleep,
by telling him its the women that you shall stay away from
..Convinced... I winced from the pain of feeling of changing my past
..for the betterment of MY
Future.
No more.
I tell myself, No more being timid...
No more being scared.
Blurred vision, i roll over in my sleep
In the midst of my sweet side that fails to exist
it creates a puzzle full of persistence and resistance
I'm ready for everything that you are ready to give me
baby, I'm ready for the unthinkable.
Then with a kick of my chair... my totem falls
and I wake up.. DREAM OVER.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Inspiration...

I inspired one of my homegirls to write this piece.. She tryna get her groove back and I admire her work

I Met An Intelligent Brotha.
I met an intelligent brotha.
...and what a man he is.

Never met such a speciman,
who stands out like he is.

we talk about books,
kick knowledge...Malcolm X

Oh yeah he's different,
not once mentioned sex...

Yes, He inspires me..
to be the higher me.

Glad to meet..
Real Men & he, The Epitome.

Gotta get my mind right
before i approach this guy.

Never knew a dude
that could Outsmart I.

I like this feeling.
That i happen to be feeling.

Not Lust, Not Love...
Just...a sort of healing.

Because lord Knows i was Sick,
of the Boys, Liars, Tricks.

Intelligent Brotha
I admire you.

Eyes wide open,
i desire you.

In a different type of way.
it should always be this way.

Inspiration, meditation..
peace within my mind.

kind of a mystery,
got me thinking all the time.

...intelligent brotha...
hold on to that head.

You are greatness,
from my mouth it has been said...

i barely know you,
but i want to get to know you.

just so that i can show you,
im an intelligent sistah too...

I met an intelligent brotha,
...and what a man he is.

Never met such a speciman,
who stands out like he is.

by: Af-Asia


I suppose it isn't enough intelligent brothers in the world.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

No hours on the clock?

Its really not enough time in the day to really spend as much time as i want with certain people. Everyone has their schedule... everybody has things to do... everyone is living their own life but still i wish i had an opportunity to spend with all those whom i love and care about because without them, i wouldnt be who i am today. I lost a friend before i had time to do everything i wanted to do with him and any second can be a second too late...

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Time to Start Over

...well maybe not.. but today will i will start a new outlook on life

Thursday, June 24, 2010

2010 Maryland HIV Prevention Youth Summit

Today I am glad to say yet again that I am HIV negative!

   Nah on something serious, as usual the young men in the world REFUSE to wear condoms to wear condoms on their DICKS and females continue to let niggas stick their BARE NAKED DICKS inside of them. Its something I don't understand.. If you wanna have sex, why can't you wear a condom? It isn't that hard to put on. It doesn't take that long to put on. It has the ability to prevent a lifetime of complications and diseases. Prolong a life!!
   I used to be the dumb uneducated boy that didnt wanna use condoms back in 9th and 10th grade but as I got older, i got over it. Now in todays world, I am meeting dudes at my school who don't use condoms, don't buy condoms, don't care about condoms and females are the same way. I suppose it starts with PARENTS to emphasize the importance of having safe sex and should be enforced in the minds of our middle schoolers and high schoolers. A 36 pack of condoms could last you a while and you would only have to pay no more than $15.
   Females, I don't know why y'all would trust a dude with your life after not knowing someone a year, month, day.... Some of the stories I have heard has been crazy.. ofcourse I don't judge... but please if the dude you want, sexy..this that and the third.. atleast make sure he wearing protection upon lusting ova him. It hurts that not one BUT two females I've come into contact have genital herpes and ofcourse there is nothing I can do about it but it comes down to what they could of did. Today, i watched a mail who didn't take all the proper measures to putting a condom on a dildo (fake penis) and it was just sad to watch my generation not knowing what it is doing when it comes down to putting a condom on properly. SAD. Frustrating! I haven't experienced a condom breaking or catching a STD/STI but it is a common occurrence among my people and our children should not be subject to this kind of ignorance...
   Once again, I digress...

Friday, June 18, 2010

Happy Birthday

“Well, birthdays are merely symbolic of how another year has gone by and how little we've grown. No matter how desperate we are that someday a better self will emerge, with each flicker of the candles on the cake, we know it's not

to be, that for the rest of our sad, wretched pathetic lives, this is who we are to the bitter end. Inevitably, irrevocably; happy birthday? No such thing.”

-Jerry Seinfeld

Monday, June 14, 2010

Now Or Later

       There is a raging debate going on in my mind. I am not a fan of cheating but realistically it happens for some reason just like most people indeed make mistakes. My question is not whether you would prefer somebody to cheat on you or not because ofcourse you would like for it never to happen. My question is simply: Now Or Later? Three days from now or three years from now? What would hurt more? Would it hurt that you can't trust your partner three months into your relationship or the fact that your lover and best friend would dare go behind your back years months into the relationship after everything you had been through together?
       I've asked some of my peers about the situation and some have told me that after their companion would have cheated within in the first three months of the relationship, the whole thing would have been null and void because the trust that a relationship is supposed to be built on is done and over with. For most people after the trust is gone there is no turning back, there is no reconcile. I want to know why, is it because that while a person is getting accustomed to a new found relationship and has yet to get used to their new found boundaries or maybe they weren't ready for a relationship, that could be the case also. There is no excuse for cheating although there could always be a reason. Most individuals are so misunderstood but results are results no matter how you got them. If you cheated you cheated, no matter what the reason is.
      Now if you switch the situation and make it three years, then it comes down to the fact that you are hurt. Deeply hurt. "Why would you cheat on me after all this time?" I still feel like there could be a reason for it to happen, whether it be spiritual, emotional, physical or whatever the case may be. However, there's always the person who cheats just to cheat so you cannot choose to make excuses for everyone. There's always the fact that people do not wanna throw away all their precious time that cannot get back for love. "Is it worth it? That decision, Because hearts break and I ain't tryna be in that collision" Is it worth going back to something that may hurt you again after soo much time and effort? Although if you have a certain type of relationship with a person and you are willing to make mends with one inorder to preserve the future which may be brighter than the present. Some cannot cope with the fact that you have to rebuild the foundation of that relationship which is built on loyalty, trust and support.
       Decisions..... Decisions......hopefully most of us won't have to make them....

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

R.I.P. D.Q.R.



You know I spend money cuz spending time is hopeless and I pop bottles because I bottle my emotions. Look up!

The sky is turning red

as my return to insanity that transcended from the vanity reflected off the mirror of the solitude that separates me from the world.. draws near

Fall into me, the sky spoke

And when the sky cries, I crawl

Out the ocean of the sorrow that has drenched my depression.

Abolish the rules made in stone yet with every crumbled metaphor comes a simile.. that can not be... a winters breeze.. that somehow became my alter ego Mr freeze.. Pierced from below, souls of my treacherous past

Betrayed by many, now ornaments dripping above

Awaiting the hour of reprisal

Your time slips away


You know I spend money cuz spending time is hopeless and I pop bottles because I bottle my emotions.


I could barely breathe when my close friend died, because we were so busy that we never tried,

To make sense of a corrupt world that could let you drown in a pool of evil.


Death is not evil, for it frees man from all ills and takes away his desires along with desire's rewards. Old age is the supreme evil, for it deprives man of all pleasures while allowing his appetites to remain, and it brings with it every possible sorrow. Yet men fear death and desire old age.


Death craves the brave and takes the weak but when somebody dies every day of the week i start to wonder who isnt.


You know I spend money cuz spending time is hopeless and I pop bottles because I bottle my emotions.


And i continue to hear my next girl argue with my ex girl because they not same female but i never share my thoughts because thats all a nigga knows.. thats why i never cry because if open up.. my eyes overflows. You remember me, i'm still the same guy.. i'm Jus a lil blue and i'm jus a lil colder not because i want to hurt you but i'm just a lil older...


Dont believe the lies.

Look me in my eyes.


Please dont be scared of what i say


Be scared of what i do


I spend money cuz spending time is hopeless and I pop bottles because I bottle my emotions.


Atleast i put it all out into the open


Rest in peace dafiq rasheed.





Thursday, May 27, 2010

A Dream Deferred

A dream unconsciously spoken
Escapes reality...
In that instant... I need to know..
Where am I?
As I walk across the clouds, I feel myself rising
waiting for the future by letting go of my past
I thought I was readyy but as a delegate once explained to me
You're never really know until you're actually doing it..
Ofcourse I'll never understand but i'll never forget
wise words from a decent man..
Trust issues because I hate to hold Denise's hand
Momma raised me... Momma dropped me...
good thing I learned how to dust my self off
A dream of the perfect portrait unfortunately
i forgot what i was drawing... and then
...i forgot what i was writing

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Take a look...

Take A Look At Yourself, The Mirrors Revealing...

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Final Fantasy XIII



Been trying my hand at my first final fantasy game on Playstation 3... pretty interesting game seeing as though i haven't played something since God of War 3 back in March.. Keeps my hands busy and my mind stimulated..

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Wise Words From A Decent Man

Often I Let An Artist Speak For Me..


"-having dreams of being single forever he’s getting worried
and I’m scared too because I’m in the same boat
good women are rare too, none of them have come close
me I have’nt changed much, you know how I play
better safe than sorry
instead of searching for substance at every single party
baby being part of this life
I feel like I’m bound to end up with somebody
that’s been with everybody
I need you to rescue me from my destiny
I’m trying to live right and give you whatever’s left of me
cause you know life is what we make it and a
chance is like a picture, it’d be nice if you just take it.
Or let me take it for ya
I’m just down to ride
or we can roll around the city until we finally decide
I got more than a thing for you, tattoo and ink for you
right over my heart girl I do the unthinkable"

-Drake

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Sex Rules Everything Around Us

Sex...
      I had an interesting conversation with one of my female friends last night and she was telling about her experiences during her just finished freshman year of college and she hinted that 'all men' that are enrolled in college expect sex from females without even attempting getting to know a female first..and she doesn't experience it that way when she goes home which is why she can't wait to go back home. Ofcourse I attempted to take the male side of the situation and say its not true.. but to no avail, she had a better point to every good point I made. I told her its society's fault and I slept on the conversation and said to myself this morning that while it is wrong for every dude to want sex initially, A LOT of females allow it and ofcourse if it didn't work for anybody then nobody would do it. I have completed three years of college and have noticed the changed mentality of myself and as well as my peers. So i have come to this fact..

     College has a reputation of freedom, parties, and sex and while that it is the case the main reason that college exists is to gain knowledge. Whether it be about your major, about people in life or just about the opposite sex. Its really amazing.. if women had the Efficacy which is the capacity to produce an effect. Then, most of the time women would not have to stand for the complete and utter nonsense that they go through now-in-days. It comes down to 'Self-efficacy' V.S. 'Social Constraints' which is what you want and not caring what others thought or doing what society allows you to do. Women should realize the power that has been gained within the last couple of centuries.. We almost had a female presidential candidate as well as a female vice president so most gender roles that were created years ago are being re-written. Some females I have conversations with love sex all the same as males do if not more but don't believe in having sex with the next random dude that happens to rear his head around the corner while her close friend will have a new dude on deck every other week. They will share their views with each other and tell each other who is wrong and who is right. A lifestyle is the way a person lives, acts and handles every situation. All lifestyles are different. I believe that the lines between personal identity and the everyday doings that signal a particular lifestyle become blurred in today's modern society. So if you have that friend that does things that you don't agree with (especially sexually) then let that person know immediately. You can't always change the way a person plays the game but you can give hints on how they can better their game... And I know I have had to give out a few condoms

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Find Your Love


Find Your Love


I am a sucker for love...
not really but I am often entranced in the thought of being in love...
i figure, one day it will happen when it need to...
but this songs speaks volumes to me because I wonder...
when i get the right opportunity to go the extra length to
find my love even if i know there could be negative things that accompany
her...



Thursday, May 6, 2010

Vintage Poetry

Some Poems I Wrote Back in 06/07. I have really evolved since then but I feel like i should definately show my growth as an artist because maturation is so important.



Battlegrounds Step Show 2010

Even though we lost by 5 points... It was a great show and the crowd loved it. Here's the vid...